She felt herself drowning before she opened her eyes. She reveled in the feeling of being enveloped and embraced by water. Her thoughts drowned her like anchors at sea. It was as if a dead weight was tied to her ankle, tugging her down into the deep, dark, boundless ocean.
Above her, she saw rays of sunlight piercing through the veil of the water. And below her, the dark unknown, slowly reeling her in. One kick. That is all she would need to regain control of her body and wade back to the surface. One stroke and she could go back. Was it worth going to those days where you could only count the hours until they were over? Was it worth going back to those 2am musings about a life you never lived? Maybe it's your fault you're drowning. Maybe it's your fault you're frowning. All you can do is watch in despair, as all of their stares drift further away as you're pulled out to sea. But drowning wasn't your fault, right?
She could feel the water filling her lungs and soon numbness wrapped its slender fingers around her and creeped into her soul.
She was as deep as the unexplored ocean, there was so much more to her than anyone had ever found. And that's why people fell in love with her, they fell in love trying to understand her. But she never felt the same way, no one could hold their breath long enough to get to the bottom of her.
She drowned anyone who ever tried.
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